It’s a known fact that life is short. At many times it is also very unfair. Sometimes I wonder what’s the point of it all.
I have had to experience a great deal of emotional turmoil this year, which has increased my reflections on life. My brother was murdered in May, one day before his 28th birthday. Yesterday was the first court hearing of the matter. A few weeks ago, a close family friend died of cancer. Yesterday, another family friend died.
The year is not over and I have already lost three persons who I cared about deeply, my brother being number one. I know that we all must die, and that grieving is a normal and necessary part of life, but sometimes it feels like it’s too much. My brother was young, healthy, energetic, handsome, generous, highly intelligent, and productive. He was just beginning to reap the benefits of hard work with his business. And then he was shot and killed by a worthless piece of scum who still breathes and walks this Earth. Why? What can be more unfair?
I believe in God and I know that He has a plan for our lives. My faith and the support of loved ones have been the main things keeping me functioning. But I have now reached the stage where I no longer care that much about things that would previously make me worry. I am no longer stressing over the small stuff.
Life is short. Why worry about things that you cannot control? I have a new perspective on life and it’s to do what makes me happy – to promote pleasure and avoid pain as far as possible. I will not sweat the small stuff. I will buy what I want, and go where I want. I will do what I want (within reason). I will live for right now for I may not be alive tomorrow.
* I wrote this post as encouragement to myself. If you can relate, feel free to let me know.